Its been almost three weeks since JMak launched into eternity. I am sitting here drinking hot chocolate made from my Dad’s famous recipe (and I actually think the only recipe my Dad knows!) with Jonathan and remembering how much JMak loves to LIVE life. The other thing JMak loves is chocolate, all kinds! He used to say dessert isn’t dessert unless its chocolate. So as we drink our hot chocolate and stay warm on this cold and snowy day in Georgia, I can’t help but think about how much life there is to live. There is life to live in the small moments like this and the big moments like what we experienced this past year through JMak’s diagnosis.
Life doesn’t come from circumstances or events that happen. Real life comes from God's Spirit, and then a simple conversation with your son over a cup of hot chocolate becomes deep and meaningful. We felt JMak. We felt my dad. We felt God.
Today, Jonathan and I talked about unselfish love and what that means (when you are the younger brother you have a lot of opportunities to learn about not being selfish).
I am so thankful that JMak taught me how to slow down and spend time on the things that really matter in life.
This weekend the boys and I went for a hike. We stopped in Roswell at a cute little spot for lunch and all of a sudden the song, Rocket Man came on. That was a song that Jason loved and grew to have a deeper meaning for all of us in this season. These little reminders are the "signs and traces" that Jason talked about. They are reassurance of God's love and goodness. 🚀💜
This is all new for me. A new season and a new year ahead. I am looking forward to the days, months and years ahead and the things that God has purposed for me. Right now, I'm taking it day by day and learning to "live like JMak." The things that he lived and taught me are guiding me each day. When I focus on the truths that God taught Jason, I find joy, peace and contentment. A sweet friend made this reminder for my wall—it is guiding me in the journey.
"Trust God with all your heart, with all your strength.
Don't look at your own understanding.
Acknowledge Him.
Ask and seek counsel.
Let Him direct you.
Believe that He is directing you.
He will take care of it.
Don't judge a thing before it's time."
